In a Dark Place, tis my Day of Reckoning

In a dark and dangerous place now,

Tis my day of reckoning.

Or so it seems to me today,

as i stand here at this crossroads

I must figure out what path

My life is to take,

Each path has its risks and dangers

My only hope out

Is to choose the one

With the lesser evil.

A great deal rests upon this decision

To choose which path i take

For tis can my life make

Advice and suggestions fly all around me

Yet i must take this step alone

For tis my life, and no one else's

And whatever evil befalls me on this path

Befalls me and me alone.

All that i know and loved

Lies around me on the brink of collapse

And it seems inevitable

That no matter what path i take

Something must be destroyed

And it seems to me to be

A case of, "Yer money or Yer life"

I need to be sure of what i need

To do in order to be safe.

Yet i must be sure of my choice

For no matter what path i take

There can be no turning back

I must choose carefully and choose it well

For, In this Dark Place, tis my Day of Reckoning

An evening at rest

Finally, i come home after a gruelling 13 hour workday, trying to solve massive puzzles all day long for the Microsoft College Puzzle Challenge. Ended up placing 7th out of 24 at my Uni and 105th Nationwide. Not too shabby for a team that was put together just the evening before and went in without a clue. Sweet! So as i sit here in the balcony of my apartment, in the freezing cold signalling the start of winter, a glass of something nice and warming by my side, relishing the nip in the air, sipping at my glass as it warms my sore aching arms and legs, my mind starts to wander, noticing the sights and sounds around me. It's already past midnight, but for the people walking the streets, going from one party to another, its Saturday night and the evening's just begun. Loud drunken shouts across the street, people clearly wasted and yet going for more. There's a pretty cheery atmosphere all around this week, the weekend offering a respite from the continual battering of exams and classes, further aided by the much desired victory for Obama. While the all the hoopla of Obama's victory and being the first black president in American history may have died down, its effects are still visible, uplifting the mood everywhere, giving people another reason to party, not that people need one out here.

And i think, why not. After all, had Mc Cain won, most of us would have probably  been on the first flight outta here. I mean seriously, while Mc Cain himself was pretty bad, the real horror out there was Palin. She really scares me. 

But i digress, as i sit there all alone in my balcony, one roommate gone home for the weekend, while the other sits in his room carrying out his daily nightly ritual of playing Halo 3 on his Xbox, night after night, swearing out loud, i start realizing just how lonely it can get, and it hits me all over, no one to talk to at night, no one i can speak openly with on the most mundane of things, just to know that i'm not alone. But i can't, because now, i truly am alone out here.

New random Conversation

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Karan: hi ЂЄ ώΘ®ð Father: Ah, the sweet sounds of net mayhem. :D ЂЄ: morning Karan: whats up? ЂЄ: nothing, college submission, already late, checking mail, waiting for mom so she can tell me if I have to make own breakfast... bored Karan: lol ЂЄ: how did Obama win party go? Karan: no party jus happy ЂЄ: demn! Karan: ? ЂЄ: just what up with ye? how is all? Karan: well, there probably were parties in the bars, but i didnt go all's good u? ЂЄ: yes okay, I feel like banging my head against something, I feel like a prick :D Karan: lol why so? ЂЄ: I don't know, but that was amazing wordplay... :P Karan: meh ЂЄ: you're just jealous, don't you ever get that feeling "I will destroy anyone who crosses my path because they woke me up in the morning" or something akin to that ? Karan: so many fucking times ЂЄ: ah good Sent at 12:45 AM on Thursday Karan: not reallyh ЂЄ: okay you should, it is a very heartening feeling Karan: nah not a part of me i like ЂЄ: if you think so Karan: mhm Sent at 12:51 AM on Thursday Karan: temme some good english movies na ЂЄ: salleyan, english land mein reh ke... :P um 3:10 to Yuma, Be Kind Rewind Karan: lol ne others? preferably newer ones ЂЄ: Assassination of Jesse James Karan: na ЂЄ: speed racer ? its awesome Karan: that sucked ЂЄ: dude! no! okay. um, eh, um, tropic thunder you know about in bruges? Karan: whats that? ЂЄ: ah, brilliant movie, Colin Farrell Karan: hows taken? and know ne preferably comedy ones? ЂЄ: taken? might be okay, In Bruges is humorous Karan: k ЂЄ: Taken was the miniseries, right? Karan: dunno ЂЄ: hokay, body of lies is not bad either Karan: k nuff for now i guess ЂЄ: hokay Karan: aur bol ЂЄ: aur nothing Karan: kay Sent at 1:04 AM on Thursday Karan: hows chicks? ЂЄ: no chicks although did have great chicken biryani thats about it Karan: mmmm nice ЂЄ: you betcher ass, and now, young Karan, I must be off, lunch and submission Karan: lol k cya Sent at 1:12 AM on Thursday ЂЄ: that sounds like a mad sex fetish, if only I had a girlfriend who could read this... :P night Karan: lol dude i'm posting