it all comes flooding back to me;
the memories i thought i'd forgotten,
the thoughts i thought i'd broken.
Sitting here sleepless and yet barely awake;
Not knowing what it is i'm doing
Unsure of even what it is i want or need
Conflicted and confused, my minds a whirl
my thoughts frenzied and scattered,
Swirling around uncontrollably in a whirlwind
Pulsating with energy, yet directionless and wild
They keep on going, uncontrollable and unstoppable
Keeping me awake against my will
As each new sensation brings back old memories
Further provoking the beast that lies within me
Angry, confused and unrelenting,
Packed with destructive energy, looking for an outlet
Desperately seeking direction, a way out, quickly and rapidly
For with nowhere else to go, these thoughts will keep swirling around
Increasing in force and strength, till it all implodes.
Everywhere i seek, only confusion finds me.
